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i talk in here and am best read on a computer :)
11/05/2025, 12:40pm
anyway dont look at that, look at this!!! up here!!!!! look here!!!!!!! today im drinking my new sheng cake, its farmerleaf's 2021 autumn jingmai. its a bit old in terms of sheng for me, i prefer them still super fresh and acidic, but this is certainly not a bad tea. super jammy mouthfeel and a round sort of floral bitterness. sweet, but i find that contrast easier to pick out and more enjoyable with a younger spring sheng. this does indeed taste like autumn.
11/05/2025, 12:28pm
every single day i get closer to thinking im just a lesbian but i also have this condition called internalised misogyny which means i still crave validation from men even though i have only found one (1) attractive in the past literally like 15 years - and to me that doesnt count because its a weird power imbalance situation going on and i think im subconsciously just grappling for financial security because everyone i know is pissing into the wind, and i also know nothing about him! i think its best it stays that way lest he piss me off! anyway. imagine getting to call a lady your wife. hoo boy. imagine brushing your wife's hair. hoooo boyyy. nsfw. graphic and lewd. and im the boy and she's the girl btw because she's prettier than me, and she can hit me with her car if i annoy her.
10/05/2025, 1:43pm
scratch my bellayyyyy. labrador came up to me on the street and fell over and i had to oblige.
09/05/2025, 4:00pm
and girl, if the humanities are dead then call me a necrophile the way im elbow deep in that fucking thing
09/05/2025, 4:00pm
my manager let me come home from work early today because we submitted a tender :). i did a loop of my suburb and checked on some of my slaps and found several scratched off lol. i get them printed locally on eggshell 'paper,' which for the layperson means that because the glue is stronger than the sticker itself, any traditional attempts at peeling it back off a surface lead to frustrating (for the buffer) chipping of the offending graffiti.
i put up stickers saying a variety of milquetoast personal activism things like 'fuck ai, draw,' 'consumerism kills,' and a funny one about plastic in our organs that reminds me of dr bronners soap bottle labels (too much writing, not enough space... like a tiny anti plastic manifesto). is it malicious to put those ones around schools? because i do. i cant imagine bringing a child onto this floating garbage patch of a planet. it is incredibly unfair to them, and to the earth.
anyway! the anti ai ones get buffed the most, i should keep a tally, which is unsurprising; i suspect a fair few people who live in sydney work in tech and have sensitive egos about their inability to make art (written, drawn, or otherwise). hell hath no fury like a techbro scorned. but what i find more interesting is when my anti consumerism stickers are 'destroyed.' maybe im so pig-headed and tunnel vision blind that i just havent heard of this new, beneficial consumerism which actually saves lives, and brings net good to the world and maybe pets puppies and kittens on its way into our hearts. stop buying crap. please. stop buying crap. stop using chatgpt. stop using plastic as much as you can.
i have not known an earth without so much crap and i will take it out on everyone because i live here as much as you do too and i love her more than all the money in the world. i wish hopelessly for anthropocene strata free of bakelite.
08/05/2025, 5:45pm
guess who woke up late for work again. so busy today. i cant believe ive been doing this for like three years, kind of miserable to think about, but i try to enjoy the company of the people more than anything; theyre probably all tired and unhappy too. they dont all hate me either which is nice, but i sitll cant shake that weird pervasive 'everyone thinks im weird and stupid' feeling that has clung to me like a bad smell since like primary school. but thats my own fault for not working on my self esteem ever. im kind of cool, idk. i just still dont know how to talk to people properly.
i keep getting tradcath instagram reels too which are really weird and sad - its so obvioius that these people are hurt and want to blame others for 'tempting' them into making bad choices. it really upsets me when people dont take responsibility for their own actions or when they bnehave like their faculties are not entirely their own to conrtol. not enough love in these people, i wish they would quit being so pessimistic and antagonistic - actively seeking to destroy community because they want everyone to be sinless and impossibly perfect. antithetical to being human and to being christian. but what do i know lol im just some fake protestant or whatever. i might work on nutting out a 'now' page now (lol), i dont know what id put on there really though because ive basically been in limbo for the past five years. doing: my job. reading: contract documents. eating: the same lunch i always have. playing: eso and/or bocw. okay bye :) radically love thy neighbour.
oh and i had more mohei today and im getting down to the dregs of the cake and its really making me sad but im excited to bust open my new cake of autumn lao man e i hope its yum (i bought it because it was the cheapest and i need to stop buying so much tea)
07/05/2025, 8:20pm
today i woke up late for work, forgot to bring my mug with me, and had to use a work mug... but on the bright side i found a tea 'berry' (more a seed pod, botanically, i think?). I was drinking farmerleaf's spring 2024 mohei which was grown on a 40 year old reclaimed tea garden! its my favourite puer and im sad its sold out :( im also unhappy because work is so busy i keep wanting to snap at my manager even though 90% of things that go wrong are my fault. anywho, i am going to go and make myself dinner :)